"Oh" I said "Do you want to go Trick-or-Treating?" He answered with a firm "Yes!" So I began to scramble in my mind where we would be going......the thought never crossed my mind of what we have done previous years, after all he is older so we will need to do what the other kids do ~ go door-to-door. When speaking of my plans to go OC to Kurt's parents house, Garrett was raging mad stating that we would not be going to OC. I couldn't figure out what in the world would bother him about going to OC.......then the tears started to roll down his face! What is the matter with going to OC Garrett?? He promptly replied that we have never gone to OC for Halloween, that we would be going to Grandma Rocky's like we always do! Caught a bit off guard, I quickly reminded him that Rocky was spending Halloween in Heaven with Jesus and that she would not be at her house. Garrett was not having it.......he insisted that if he called her, she would come home so that he could help her pass out candy! AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH what an emotional afternoon it was! I took for granted that Garrett completely understood that Rocky was not coming back to be with us! He has not mentioned her for awhile now! I really thought he got it, but boy was I wrong! This is the first "holiday" per say that sticks out in his head, that we always go and be with her! He was DETERMINED to call her and that she would come home to be with us!
Which brings me to say that if I have learned anything from reading blogs and from life experiences these last few years it's that we aren't promised tomorrow and we also aren't promised that life will be easy. With all that has gone on for me today - I hope I'm learning to treasure every last minute.
You never know when it might be the "last". On this same exact day last year, I had no clue that one year from then, I would be explaining to my 5 year old that we would never again pass out candy with Rocky. That this was the "last" time that we got to do it! I know that it is a memory for him that is special!
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take - but by the moments that take our breath away!
We ended up having a fun night, which I will post pictures of tomorrow! For now, I am off to bed and am sure that I will sleep well tonight! Crying always seems to make me tired!
2 comments:
I cried when I read your post today. I understand what Garrett is feeling. Our church is celebrating All Saints Sunday today by lighting a candle and placing a white rose on the altar for loved ones that have passed away this year. Jennifer will be lighting a candle for Grandma this year. I hope that you are able to keep Grandma Rocky's memory alive for your children. She loved them both very much.
I do not know who could not cry reading this account of your day. Of course, it is very personal to us. I immediately went and got Mom's journal and read her entry from last year. Sure enough she had written of her visitors - a ninja turtle and I can't remember the other one. I know how strong willed Garrett is so I am sure he was not easily convinced but I trust you used TLC with him. I wish we could all comfort one another. I hope both boys learn the love of our Saviour and know HE is always there for us.
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